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Steiger – Gwairsoft.co.uk Obviously I’m not what most people would describe as happy But that has nothing to do with anything Happiness iObviously I’m not what most people would describe as happy But that has nothing to do with anything Happiness is not a priority Survival isAlvie Fitz doesn’t fit in and she doesn’t care She’s spent years swallowing meds and bad advice from doctors and social workers Adjust adapt Pretend to be normal It sounds so easyIf she can make it to her eighteenth birthday without any major mishaps she I want to preface this review by saying that I am not autistic not do I have the disability that Stanley suffers from and I can only speak as an outsider looking in; however any and all own voice opinions and reviews would be welcomed and I would be happy to boost your review if you DM me or drop me a comment Why did everyone act like it was my fault when the other kids bullied me? Why was I always the one who had to change? Going into a book with a romance between an autistic MC and her disabled love interest is the sort of thing that makes me feel very wary – will it be good authentic rep? Will these characters be painted positively? Will I find myself knee deep in tropes and cheap shots? Again while I can’t speak from experience I found myself feeling really pleased by the rep in this book and the way issues were handled There were so many potential tropes that the author cleanly subverted and I was so invested in this story and these characters that I genuinely did not want it to end Happiness is not a priority Survival is Staying sane is Pointing out that I’m not happy is like pointing out to a starving homeless man that he doesn’t have a sensible retirement plan It might be true but it’s entirely beside the point As a child Alvie was diagnosed with Asperger’s and was told that she had to “get better” or she would never get anywhere in life Now she’s 17 years old and determined to prove the world wrong and wow is she fierce Her commitment to taking care of herself would be noble enough in any teen but for her the stakes are so much higher and her fear of being put into a group home broke my heart In fact it was the very first thing in this story that was eye opening for me empathizing with the thought that someone could be threatened with having their freedoms taken away from them just because they don’t interact with the world in what we’ve deemed as “socially acceptable” Technically my condition doesn’t even exist any; if I ever go back to the doctor they’ll presumably have to find some other label to stick on me The specific words don’t matter I’ll always be this way Despite the fact that so much of the story is heavy focusing on Alvie’s determination to simply survive through each day her commentary on the world around her is refreshing and often really mood lifting She loves animals dearly and has some particularly wide words on nature as a whole but also she manages to point out how people in their day to day lives do so many strange or unnecessary things – whose authority was it to deem them as “normal”? The idea that autistic people don’t feel compassion is just an ugly stereotype but it’s a viewpoint I’ve encountered even from some professionals despite obvious evidence to the contrary More than anything though I loved how kind Alvie is She is so concerned with the world around her and though she doesn’t always know how to express them her intentions are always in the right place Especially when she meets Stanley the young man with the cane who comes to visit her park everyday As she grows to know and care for him Alvie cares about his well being than anything else and she blooms into this incredibly loving and nurturing young woman even when it means sacrificing her own happiness Nothing about me is easy If you asked me to choose who I loved between Alvie and Stanley to be honest I don’t think I could He matches Alvie’s compassion but he’s terrified of not being “enough” – of being unable to protect her or to be her eual due to his own disability and mental health Not only does he suffer from a condition called osteogenesis imperfecta – or as he says “a fancy way of saying my bones break easily” – but we also learn that familial abuse has given him terrible PTSD We’ll come back to that in a moment but it leads me to my next point Does he assume that just because I’m different I’m incapable of having a sexual relationship with anyone? That I’m unable even to feel desire? This story focuses on an incredible amount of sex and the way that it is handled made me want to cry tears of joy because it is absolutely the kind of rep that we need in YANA books There is a tremendous amount of talk surrounding consent especially due to Alvie’s touch aversions and sensitivity to stimulus and the characters are unafraid to sit down and talk about what is or isn’t comfortable for them There’s a lot of sex positivity regarding one night stands and casual sex but there’s also mention of how emotional sex can be between two individuals who care deeply for one anotherBoth characters are virgins and there are conversations about how terrifying that first time can be or how toxic masculinity affects young men who don’t have sex immediately after puberty There’s just so much important content about sex in this book including the fact that in this mf couple the guy is the one who’s “not ready” and the girl is the one who has to tamp down her carnal desires and be patient I just loved their whole relationship so much for so many reasons that I couldn’t even list them all here “When the ones who hurt you are the people who love you most no one ever tells you how you’re supposed to deal with that” Finally the last major topic Steiger addresses abuse in many different forms as well as the guilt that can come with being an autistic or disabled individual with loved ones who don’t share your struggles There is a lot of talk about feeling like a burden or feeling “not good enough” and Alvie shares a few flashbacks to painful moments and things her mother said to her as well as an incredibly traumatic experience her mother put her through as a preteen Despite all of these focuses on the negative outcomes of Alvie and Stanley’s respective family problems the theme throughout the book remains the same it should never be an autistic mentally ill or disabled person’s responsibility to feel guilty useless or broken Instead it should be society’s responsibility to learn how to offer compassion empathy accessibility and understanding When My Heart Joins the Thousand isn’t your typical contemporary and these aren’t your typical YA characters This story is so uniue and so precious and so heavy and so special I am so so happy to have had the opportunity to read it and I sincerely hope that Steiger writes important work like this in the futureContent warnings ableism PTSD mental illness assault suicide abuse homophobia All uotes are taken from an unfinished ARC and may differ from the finished product Thank you so much to HarperTeen for granted me this ARC in exchange for my honest review

When My Heart Joins the ThousandObviously I’m not what most people would describe as happy But that has nothing to do with anything Happiness is not a priority Survival isAlvie Fitz doesn’t fit in and she doesn’t care She’s spent years swallowing meds and bad advice from doctors and social workers Adjust adapt Pretend to be normal It sounds so easyIf she can make it to her eighteenth birthday without any major mishaps she I want to preface this review by saying that I am not autistic not do I have the disability that Stanley suffers from and I can only speak as an outsider looking in; however any and all own voice opinions and reviews would be welcomed and I would be happy to boost your review if you DM me or drop me a comment Why did everyone act like it was my fault when the other kids bullied me? Why was I always the one who had to change? Going into a book with a romance between an autistic MC and her disabled love interest is the sort of thing that makes me feel very wary – will it be good authentic rep? Will these characters be painted positively? Will I find myself knee deep in tropes and cheap shots? Again while I can’t speak from experience I found myself feeling really pleased by the rep in this book and the way issues were handled There were so many potential tropes that the author cleanly subverted and I was so invested in this story and these characters that I genuinely did not want it to end Happiness is not a priority Survival is Staying sane is Pointing out that I’m not happy is like pointing out to a starving homeless man that he doesn’t have a sensible retirement plan It might be true but it’s entirely beside the point As a child Alvie was diagnosed with Asperger’s and was told that she had to “get better” or she would never get anywhere in life Now she’s 17 years old and determined to prove the world wrong and wow is she fierce Her commitment to taking care of herself would be noble enough in any teen but for her the stakes are so much higher and her fear of being put into a group home broke my heart In fact it was the very first thing in this story that was eye opening for me empathizing with the thought that someone could be threatened with having their freedoms taken away from them just because they don’t interact with the world in what we’ve deemed as “socially acceptable” Technically my condition doesn’t even exist any; if I ever go back to the doctor they’ll presumably have to find some other label to stick on me The specific words don’t matter I’ll always be this way Despite the fact that so much of the story is heavy focusing on Alvie’s determination to simply survive through each day her commentary on the world around her is refreshing and often really mood lifting She loves animals dearly and has some particularly wide words on nature as a whole but also she manages to point out how people in their day to day lives do so many strange or unnecessary things – whose authority was it to deem them as “normal”? The idea that autistic people don’t feel compassion is just an ugly stereotype but it’s a viewpoint I’ve encountered even from some professionals despite obvious evidence to the contrary More than anything though I loved how kind Alvie is She is so concerned with the world around her and though she doesn’t always know how to express them her intentions are always in the right place Especially when she meets Stanley the young man with the cane who comes to visit her park everyday As she grows to know and care for him Alvie cares about his well being than anything else and she blooms into this incredibly loving and nurturing young woman even when it means sacrificing her own happiness Nothing about me is easy If you asked me to choose who I loved between Alvie and Stanley to be honest I don’t think I could He matches Alvie’s compassion but he’s terrified of not being “enough” – of being unable to protect her or to be her eual due to his own disability and mental health Not only does he suffer from a condition called osteogenesis imperfecta – or as he says “a fancy way of saying my bones break easily” – but we also learn that familial abuse has given him terrible PTSD We’ll come back to that in a moment but it leads me to my next point Does he assume that just because I’m different I’m incapable of having a sexual relationship with anyone? That I’m unable even to feel desire? This story focuses on an incredible amount of sex and the way that it is handled made me want to cry tears of joy because it is absolutely the kind of rep that we need in YANA books There is a tremendous amount of talk surrounding consent especially due to Alvie’s touch aversions and sensitivity to stimulus and the characters are unafraid to sit down and talk about what is or isn’t comfortable for them There’s a lot of sex positivity regarding one night stands and casual sex but there’s also mention of how emotional sex can be between two individuals who care deeply for one anotherBoth characters are virgins and there are conversations about how terrifying that first time can be or how toxic masculinity affects young men who don’t have sex immediately after puberty There’s just so much important content about sex in this book including the fact that in this mf couple the guy is the one who’s “not ready” and the girl is the one who has to tamp down her carnal desires and be patient I just loved their whole relationship so much for so many reasons that I couldn’t even list them all here “When the ones who hurt you are the people who love you most no one ever tells you how you’re supposed to deal with that” Finally the last major topic Steiger addresses abuse in many different forms as well as the guilt that can come with being an autistic or disabled individual with loved ones who don’t share your struggles There is a lot of talk about feeling like a burden or feeling “not good enough” and Alvie shares a few flashbacks to painful moments and things her mother said to her as well as an incredibly traumatic experience her mother put her through as a preteen Despite all of these focuses on the negative outcomes of Alvie and Stanley’s respective family problems the theme throughout the book remains the same it should never be an autistic mentally ill or disabled person’s responsibility to feel guilty useless or broken Instead it should be society’s responsibility to learn how to offer compassion empathy accessibility and understanding When My Heart Joins the Thousand isn’t your typical contemporary and these aren’t your typical YA characters This story is so uniue and so precious and so heavy and so special I am so so happy to have had the opportunity to read it and I sincerely hope that Steiger writes important work like this in the futureContent warnings ableism PTSD mental illness assault suicide abuse homophobia All uotes are taken from an unfinished ARC and may differ from the finished product Thank you so much to HarperTeen for granted me this ARC in exchange for my honest review

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When My Heart Joins the Thousand Ì Lks with a cane who turns up every day with a new injury whose body seems as fragile as glass Without even meaning to she finds herself getting close to him But Alvie remembers what happened to the last person she truly cared aboutHer past stalks her with every step and it has sharp teeth But if she can find the strength to face the enemy inside her maybe she’ll have a chance at happiness after a Originally posted at NOVELcravings review copy courtesy of Harper CollinsThis is one of those books that upon finishing it I hugged it tightly to my chest And I know that it is undoubtedly one of the best books of 2018 and I wish people were talking about it The author had me fall in love with her characters care greatly for their journey and put me through every emotion possible It was both movingly beautiful and painfully heartbreaking If you read When My Heart Joins The Thousand and let me be clear I recommend it to everyone you will know what I meanThe main character Alvie is a foster child who lives independently while pursuing emancipation Her fear is that she will be placed in a group home if the judge decides her Aspergers means she is incapable of being a functioning member of society I can’t speak for the rep in this book and there’s a lot mental health abuse disability autism but I think it was done well and handled respectfully Like I said this book makes you feel the whole rainbow of emotions I felt love and admiration for Alvie because she never gives up despite all she’s been through I was angry for her at the broken system that failed her and must fail people in real life I was disgusted actually that society expected her to “get better” and be “normal” But I also felt a lot of happy especially every time Alvie did something outside her comfort zone she is a truly inspiring characterPeople with Aspergers tend to be blunt and so was the writing in a way I think YA should be Teens don’t only need flowery stories of happy ever after they need real stories that reflect the lives they live every day Alvie doesn’t always understand sarcasm or societies way of constantly putting on a show For example when she has to attend court she can’t understand why a suit instead of jeans and a t shirt helps prove her ability to be independent And she’s right I could relate to that The characters are also very frank and honest about sex – this is so important for YA Communication was clear consent was there Thank you A J Steiger for writing about two teens who handled sex in a very healthy way This is what I would want my teenager to readLet it be known the writing and pacing and all that important jazz were good But I won’t talk about that in detail because importantly this book moved me It is rare that a book makes me feel all the feels I did with this one AND I still think about it almost daily I can’t tell you the last time a book impacted me like thisI gave this book all the starsGo read it doc Ü When My Heart Joins the Thousand ↠ A.J. Steiger

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A.J. Steiger ↠ When My Heart Joins the Thousand ePub ’ll be legally emancipated Free But if she fails she’ll become a ward of the state and be sent back to the group homeAll she wants is to be left alone to spend time with her friend Chance the one winged hawk at the zoo where she works She can bide her time with him until her emancipation Humans are overrated anyway Then she meets Stanley a boy who might be even stranger than she is a boy who wa Whoa That was gut punch Some tears were shed but by the end they were happy tears This book provided such an interesting look at independence and finding one's self This was uite an emotional journey during which I shed many tears But I can assure you I was shedding happy tears by the end of this book•Pro I was such an Alvie fan She was honest to the point and uite funny She was a fantastic narrator and I loved listening to her observations and musings I also cared for her so much she deserved so much than the hand she was dealt and I just wanted to see her achieve everything her heart desired •Pro I loved Stanley He was sweet and caring but most of all he didn't want to change Alvie He made an effort to learn about ASD because he wanted to know how to make her comfortable not to cure her •Pro Alvie was a big reader who mostly loved animals and science There were so many cool discussion about the two The science stuff I am well acuainted with but I learned a ton about animals from her •Pro I have read a few books featuring neurodivergent characters and this one ranks up with the great ones It made me think so much about what is normal or typical and also wove things into the story to educate me about people on the spectrum and help clear up some of those misconceptions that run rampant •Pro My emotions My emotions For a good part of the book there were these heartbreaking flashbacks that kept making me shed tears I felt physical pain for Alvie and everything she had suffered in her past I also shed some tears of joy when things went her way •Pro Both Alvie and Stanley are dealing with rough pasts I was overwhelmed with happiness when they found each other Pro A for that ending I swear it had me wanting to dance on the mountain top Bravo Overall This story was at times intense and heartbreaking but ultimately hopeful I absolutely enjoyed taking this journey with Alvie as she fought for to be independent to survive and to be loved ARC provided in exchange for an honest review